Thursday, May 20, 2010

Where Did I Come From?

Where was it exactly that I crossed the threshold to needing to dye my hair, go to the gym and use sunscreen?

Where was I exactly when I could no longer justify spending half a paycheck on clothes and shoes?

When did I become so boring that I couldn't simply jump in the car and take off for the night, a weekend or forever?

Where did this women come from who knows about Drain-O, OxiClean and Magic Erasers?

Where did I get these comfortable shoes, laugh lines and over sized purses?

Where did I come from?

When did I start carrying napkins, straws and band-aids in my car?

Where is the girl who wore short shorts, mini skirts and belly shirts?

When did I become so good at catching cookie thieves, instigating tickle fights and mopping up apple juice?

Where did I learn exactly when to smile at you in order to make you smile, too?

Where did I learn to cook dinner, do fractions and fold laundry at the same time?

When did I stop worrying about fitting in, moving up and getting paid more?

When did I start instead hanging on, lifting higher and working harder? 

Where did I learn to erase bad dreams, hurt feelings and ink marks on clothes?

 Looking at the woman I've become, I can't help but wonder "Where did I come from?"

And then you  smile at me and suddenly I understand.

Just as you came from me....maybe, perhaps, I came from you, too.


Wife on the Roller Coaster said...

Wow, what an incredible post!! I think these thought all the time. My family has transformed me into a person that I wouldn't recognize a decade ago. And you know what? I love it! You really got me thinking. Great post, thanks for sharing.

trooppetrie said...

isn't it funny what we change over time

Alia said...

I love this! It's so true, it's exactly how I have been feeling lately, and btw I have been looking all over for your blog! I am so glad you left me your url!! :) I can't wait to read more!