Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My Head is Spinning

I just spent the last hour catching up on all the blogs I follow. I swear I'm like a crack addict. I love having glimpses in the windows of other people's lives (wait, does that make me a Peeping Tom?). 

It's certainly been a crazy week so let's start at the beginning and go from there.

I was found on Facebook. OK I wasn't hiding or anything but I also didn't realize that someone was actually looking for me. Seems that they were though.

I'm an orphan. Not a "I never knew my parents" orphan but an orphan none-the-less. I spent the last two years of high school living in a foster. When my mom died, it wasn't long before I lost contact with her family. Her nine brothers and sisters were spread out from one end of the country to the other. And then there I was...living in the state that was as far east and north as you could go. You can understand how it's easy to discover one day that you've managed to slip away. So there I was...floating along until the other day when I was found. My Facebook Friends list now includes.....cousins and an aunt. Who knew?? This "being part of a family" thing is something that I thought I had forgotten but maybe I was wrong. There is something very reassuring about having someone who remembers you when you were still a child. I'm excited.

"Propane" called me this morning to talk. (Propane is my ex husband and so named because of the heater installation company he owns). I dropped a huge bomb on him last week when I told him that Sexy Beast is probably going to get orders to Oklahoma. Since that conversation I have done nothing. I didn't hound, nag or annoy. I simply let him sit with it. Think about it, talk to the boys and come to his on decisions. I stayed quiet. I waited. And I prayed. He called me today to tell me that he won't fight me on moving the boys. I realized once again how important prayer and silence are. I'm thankful beyond words and I have a great respect for him for allowing the boys to choose what they want. Another hurdle crossed.

Finally, I'll see Sexy Beast on Saturday. SATURDAY!! As in, a few days away! I'm so flippin' excited. I have not seen him since March 21st (two days after our wedding). It's been a lonely two months and I'm glad that I don't have to wait much longer. I'm not going to Alaska to see him. We are both going to fly into Oklahoma and spend a few days checking out the area. That way if his orders are cut like they most likely will be, we'll know more about the area. A trip to Oklahoma doesn't really count as a honeymoon though, does it??

Ahhh, it's getting late and I need to get to bed. The sooner I do the closer I am to Saturday and right now, all I'm waiting for is to kiss his face. For a very long time.


Anonymous said...

From one of your long lost cousins, I am very happy for you!!! You have been thru alot in your life, and seem to have finally come to your happiness. Silence can be golden, and remember, all things happen for a reason. I can't wait until you live closer and we can finally meet!!

Love you Jenn! Have a great trip, and be safe!

Sherry said...

OK Jenn,,,,the anonymous post above is me! Didn't have an account yet!!!

Gaile said...

Following you back (as promised)... and the song you liked on my blog is "On My Watch" by Mike Corrado. he is a Marine, and if you watch the slideshow at http://luckydimesanddogtags.blogspot.com/ my hubby is IN the slideshow! He happened to be at Camp Fallujah at the same time as Major Corrado (his then-rank...I think he has since promoted?) Anyway, my favorite Mike Corrado song is "Start Saving Me" and he just released a new CD this week, called "Stand". Check him out! :)

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